Chapter 40
Chapter 40
Idina just kept her ears open with a blank expression. Crossing her arms, she turned her body diagonally. She didn’t want to look any further into Lilles’ face, which had an expression she had never seen before, so she turned her gaze elsewhere.
She seemed to be rejecting Lilles with her whole body, but in his eyes, she looked especially beautiful today.
The thin clothes that clung to her body made her beautiful body stand out. Even in the dark, her neck with a beautiful line and her slender legs visible under the frilled hem kept stealing Lilles’ attention.
Lilles had known for a long time that Idina was no ordinary beauty even among omegas.
……But was it really like this?
Now, she even exuded a sexiness that had not been seen in her before.
Since they were young, Lilles had considered her a childhood friend. That was also the reason he teased her as a brat.
But today, she looked like a real ‘woman’.
He had always thought that after their long engagement, he would make Idina his woman once they got married.
He would imprint her as she becomes his own true omega.
However, since they weren’t married yet and she was definitely going to marry to him anyway, Lilles thought about it leisurely.
But…… he lost her right in front of him.
‘She’s mine.’
She’s my omega.
It was natural since he was busy, but it was regrettable that he could only feel her pheromones so faintly in this distance.
At this moment, Lilles’s earnestness was sincere.
As the eldest son of the duke’s family, he had lived a life without envy. Yet for the first time in his life, he was saying such things.
“Th-Things like that were just teasing you. You know very well, I was immature….. I was just acting like a child.”
“…….”
However, there was still no warmth in Idina’s eyes. She had been reluctant to him since before, but it was the first time she had made him feel suffocated like this.
Lilles’ hesitation grew thicker as he spoke.
It was something that would be insulting if others heard, but he thought it was okay to treat her carelessly because she was his.
However, the mere fact that there was a possibility of being rejected made Lilles feel infinitely smaller.
“Touching another woman….”
He racked his brain, not knowing what to say, and recalled the things he had done wrong.
He thought that a day like this would never come. He regretted that he should have held himself back if he had known.
“Even I think it’s an absurd excuse.”
“Tell me.”
“….I started because I thought you might be jealous.”
However, the more he spoke, the colder Idina’s eyes seemed to grow. Lilles felt sweat running down his back. He felt like he was sinking into a swamp the more he continued, but he had to finish.
“But I swear I’ve never made a child…….”
None.
But before he could finish the sentence. Idina cut him off and blurted out.
“Do you know that you’re such a piece of sh*t?”
“…….”
There was a deep sense of disgust in her voice. It was also the coldest thing Lilles had ever heard from her.
Lilles felt a pain as if his heart had been stabbed with a spear at her words.
He could no longer make excuses.
Idina sighed softly at his frozen appearance, and continued speaking in a slightly more relaxed tone than before.
“I don’t think I’m the only one you should repent for, Lilles.”
It meant that instead of just pouring out his regrets on her, he should go and apologize to each of the women he has played with.
Idina’s tone as she spoke was like soothing a very young child.
It was a very gentle voice, but Lilles felt certain through her even more gentle words.
He could not be her ‘man.’
She was already a woman and an omega to Lilles. However, he could not be a man or an alpha to Idina now or in the future.
They were meant to be together since birth. Lilles believed that she would always be by his side.
But in reality, it was a relationship that would end so easily with just one sentence: Let’s break off the engagement.
Lilles wanted to deny reality endlessly.
However, in the end, those words came out of Idina’s mouth. No, to him, they sounded like words of farewell.
“If you’re done with your business, I’ll go in.”
The moment he saw Idina’s back as she turned around, Lilles felt a sense of crisis. He ran over and grabbed her wrist.
He narrowed the distance between them.
“Idina!”
However, as soon as he was grabbed, he was pushed away with great force. Idina was truly angry at him, whose hand flew into the air.
“I told you not to touch me!”
“……!”
The scream was sharp. However, Lilles instinctively knew that this was truly the last time. If he couldn’t hold her back now, Idina would never see him again.
Lilles grabbed her shoulder as she tried to move away again. She looked surprised, but he was too desperate to care.
“Listen carefully, Idina! The breakup, the breakup… wasn’t my will. Really!”
The tone of his voice rose because he desperately wanted her to believe him. Idina looked even more disgusted.
“What nonsense are you talking about after saying it yourself?”
But it wasn’t nonsense.
Lilles had his own circumstances. He swore as the resentment welled up inside him.
