Chapter 39
Chapter 39
His eyes were trembling with embarrassment.
She didn’t know what happened while she was away. Regardless, Idina, who had seen Lilles’s behavior, did not feel the slightest bit of sympathy.
“So that’s why you came back the woman who you used to tease as a fool all the time.”
“That can’t be true…”
He barely managed to utter a single rebuttal. There was no strength in his voice.
Lilles clenched his right fist so hard that the joints turned white.
Taking a deep breath, he closed his eyes tightly, and then managed to utter a single word with difficulty.
“That was a lie.”
Idina momentarily lost track of the context at the words that cut off the beginning and end. She narrowed her wrinkle-free, delicate eyebrows.
“What?”
“That I have another partner. That was a lie.”
Lilles’s voice trembled, but Idina still looked at him with cold eyes, not sympathetic ones.
Finally opened his eyes after making what he thought was a serious confession, he hesitated and asked when he noticed Idina’s gaze.
“Why… why are you looking at me like that?”
It was a question with an obvious answer. Idina asked back instead of answering.
“Do you think I’ll believe you?”
“Idina…….”
<A prettier woman with much better conditions than you has appeared.>
If Idina were to repeat what he said verbatim, she would be confident that she would not leave out a single word.
Lilles had said those words with his own ‘own mouth’. He didn’t borrow someone else’s. He clearly said it himself.
But now you’re saying that’s a lie? Seriously, she would rather believe bullshit.
Besides, judging from his usual behavior, he could have easily abandoned Idina for that reason.
No, let me correct this.
He never accepted Idina in the first place, so he didn’t abandon her. He just drew the line more clearly.
“Even when you were engaged to me, you were always with other women. I think there were quite a few young ladies from powerful noble families. Am I wrong in my memory?”
“……..”
Lilles couldn’t answer the question. Idina understood that what she said was right, so she had nothing more to add.
He actually didn’t pay attention to her feelings. Shamelessly, he would even hugged the waists of other young ladies in front of her.
“I knew everything. I’m not the kind of loner who wouldn’t even hear such rumors.”
And the rumors about Lilles could be heard everywhere. There was no one who had ever stepped foot into the social world who didn’t know that he was a player.
Moreover, whenever he went out with someone, his fiancée Idina was also mentioned. So how could she, the victim, not know how debauched Lilles was?
Even things she didn’t know about would soon reach her ears after a few days. At those time, she would hear things like, “Who did he sleep with?”
Of course, the names of the people they would talk about changed every time.
“But do you know why I didn’t say anything to you?”
“Why?”
Idina whispered her reason in a voice that contained no emotion.
“Because you mean nothing to me.”
At those words, the expression on Lilles’ face disappeared. He clenched his molars, his jawbone slightly protruding.
“That’s too much.”
“Well, what did you expect. You treated me as a woman who will bear children for your family. Did you think I would treat you better than that?”
“…….”
“I don’t enjoy getting hurt by holding on to someone who has no interest in me.”
There were already many people around Idina Bride who loved her.
The Duke and Duchess of Bride, Elliot, and even her siblings. All of her family loved Idina.
Life is busy having fun with such people.
Idina wasn’t foolish enough to cling to someone who didn’t like her and ruin her own self-esteem.
But Lilles protested.
“That wasn’t it, that wasn’t it, Idina.”
“What do you mean it wasn’t that?”
Lilles hesitated a few more times before finally opening his mouth. The words that followed were shocking enough to convince Idina of the reason for his hesitation.
“I did it because I… liked you.”
“What?”
‘You did it because you liked me…..?’
Today, he must have really gone crazy. He kept talking nonsense that was impossible to listen to, to the point where it seemed like he had taken some strange medicine.
However, Lilles’s usually playful face was not smiling at this moment. Instead, he furrowed his brow as if he was in pain and kept chewing his lips. It was almost as if he was going to bleed.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry…….”
An apology that she thought she would never hear from Lilles in her entire life flowed out. He put his hand on his chest and insisted on his sincerity.
“I’ll explain everything. You might not believe me, but I can tell you everything. I will do so without a single lie.”
As he said that, he tried to sneakily close the distance between himself and Idina. Idina shouted sharply, moving away as much as he had come closer.
“Don’t come near me!”
Lilles’ steps stopped abruptly.
He looked quite shocked, as if he hadn’t expected Idina’s resistance.
However, Idina’s feelings showed no sign of wavering. Since it was a feeling that had built up over many years, it was absolutely not something that could be resolved with just a few words.
“If you want to make an excuse, just say it. I’ll listen.”
It really meant that she would ‘listen’, but Lilles seemed to feel a little hopeful just from that. His face brightened a little.
He took a deep breath and slowly opened his mouth. It was as if she had been given the opportunity to stand in his shoes, so he chose his words carefully.
“……I don’t know where to start.”
